today is tuesday, january 27, 2008.
and these are my thoughts:
- it's snowing... and it's beautiful out.
- but, inside i feel gross. physically and heart-ily.
- though when i'm feeling better, all i want is a place to dance around to this new franz ferdinand record. i can't even deal with it...good heavens.
- i left work early and nearly crashed at least 3 times. for some reason, the roads were just crazy slippery... though, it wasn't icy or slushy, really... gosh, i should have turned around this morning.
- i saw your picture and i got all weak in the knees-like. but, mostly i wonder how you are. i should call you today and see how life is.
- i saw pictures of jordan and aaron and i wanted to cry. because i miss them. there's a full-on void in my heart.
- i saw pictures of my friends and i wanted to have them around. to just be in the same room.
- i conversated with a couple of guys, and afterward i just felt sick...
- partly because it makes me miss someone who's conversations always left me smiling and deeply happy and feeling uplifted, as opposed to the aforementioned causing annoyance and nausea.
- oh, and no. i am not interested.
- i would like a good night of sleep. where i wake up feeling refreshed.
- why do i always want to just run?
- i wish my chest would stop hurting.
- i wish i could have c.s. lewis as a dad. or you know, a second dad or something.
- i'm staying in bed. it's nicer in here.
good afternoon. good evening. and goodnight.