therapy ii/xx

did you ever wish for some sort of selective amnesia?

or the moments where something hurt so bad you wished to be punched in the face?

like somehow the feeling of physical pain would snap you out of the inner anguish.

i was perched on the bar stool just listening to facts and fiction

talking about feelings and wishin

and there are those moments you want to hold tight

and others you'd like to completely disappear

i even looked up the side-effects and what would happen should i become careless

on purpose, obviously

and the risk wasn't worth it.

i never have time for it.

they say i'm so strong...

then why does it feel like i'm weakest?

like i'm just a sucker

a sucker who just got punched.

and above all this, i'd like someone to stand up for me

or a way of escape

or to turn off my brain

all the good is undone

all the trust burnt up

like some crazy forest fire smokey the bear warned you about

or to have selective amnesia

and forget what caused all this.