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so nice.

time to rehash the accounts of the past.

re-hack.

but longing for a delete key.

because i am tired of apologizing for my face.

i am tired of apologizing for the way my heart beats.

i am tired of apologizing for my body.

the tears it makes.

the fears that make it shake.

but remember...

IT'S ALL IN YOUR HEAD.

because i'm not told otherwise

unshown.

and the compare and contrast ability is spread out for the world to see.

i am more and less.

i am least and best.

i am all but nowt.

i am in but out.

i am not quite enough.

and it's all gone a bit rough

well i heard the news and felt it die

i saw the words and felt it go

lights unblinking

messages unsent

untreasured gift

but remember

IT'S ALL IN YOUR HEAD

and so i cut off the pieces

let the chords fall where they may

turn a deaf ear

pretend to be blind

pretend...

to be the one who makes the old disappear

like some smoke left in the rear view

the most beautiful

the one worth all the risk...

again in the face of fear

above the voices that say history will repeat

the one longed for

the one wanted

the name on your lips

the song in your heart

the smile on your face

the hope in your head

the object of your affection

the shape of your love.

and for it to be anything but

just inside my head.