"for our question is: 'Am I Lovely?"
and to be rejected is to hear a resounding. NO. "
i hear 'no' like a cd that's broken and skipping.
if a new heart has been created in me. if a new palace created from the ashes of my heart... then, a new war has been declared. and an atomic bomb has just been dropped on it. knowingly or unknowingly, many hands have helped set this in motion.
today i was minding my own business at one of my favourite places in east nashville. a song came on, and i literally had to excuse myself and run to my car to cry.
my heart is sick, friends. i am not ok at all.
"there's a low low feeling around me and a stone cold feeling inside. i just can't stop messing my mind up... wasting my time."