certain.

and i was searching through the windows

and i could feel it resting on my bones

the kind i have to tear off before it finds its way into the marrow

the disassociation gets much harder after that

i could feel it eating away at my joy

right in the center of my diaphragm

i was even smiling

the strongest smile couldn't keep them from spilling out

thank God for sunglasses

i think it comes down to the fact that i need a little certainty.

there is nothing like the feeling that ones heart is absolutely grounded

feet firmly planted

and you are standing

'neath sunny skies

within stormy weather

confident and certain.

x-factors can be exciting.

can be liberating.

hold me steady in uncertainty.

the clouds turned a bit gray

it happens that way

yesterday, it was sunny

and the shadow of doubt passed over

come on, come on, come on!

i don't want to feel the want

the pound for pound

the lack

come on, come on, come on!

LIGHTS COME ON!

and make the uncertainty leave.

about myself.

about the future.

about the here and now.

anchor my heart.

let me be certain.