un...found

Find me

Infuriated

Full of light and fury

Full of dark and hurry

Full of angst and worry

Anxious in a still still room

On a bed

Unslept

Held only by walls I painted

Tucked in some lonesome corner of the county

Wrapped up in shrouds of beauty

Most of them would curse it

Most of them would lay down and die

It.

The heavy weight of being cast off.

The moment you wake to realize you are no longer…

The love of anyone’s life.

The highest priority…

The deepest heartbeat

The most beautiful

The apple of their dark eyes

The motivating factor

The color in the sky…

The light… the light that makes them move…

You’ve been unraveled

Unwoven

Unloved.

Undone.

And ushered by your lover into the very jaws of hell…

And left

To drink the seas of loneliness down…

The pale ring on the finger of your left hand…

The diamond lost.

Now, wrapped up in excuses and justifications

And the passing off of blame

Heavy on your shoulders

Heavy on your head

Heavy on your furrowed brow

Heavy on your mind

Always on your mind

Haunted…

Silent and haunted.

Feeling breathless

Burning lungs

Cracked lips

A prayer ever on my lips…

Unuttered words

And lost affection

Stolen affection

And the red marks of lies like welts to the face.

And so in this brokenness… I wait.

Wait in the feeling

Wait in the knowing

Wait until I’m healed

Wait until I’m found

Find me…