Sunday, February 6, 2011

sunday, february 6, 2011

chaos.
disappointment.
infinity blues.
i feel like i am treading water...
fighting currents.
fighting myself.
fighting.
fighting.
fighting.
and losing.
asking.
asking.
asking.
access denied.
giving.
giving.
giving.
stolen.
depleted.
understanding.
offering.
being...
receiving cold shoulders and silence and rejection and judgement.
and i'm just tired...
of everything being the same.
of being disappointed.
i can't sleep.
i can't eat.
i feel miserable when i do both.
so i just keep moving until it all shuts down.
hoping it will all go numb.
because, nothing seems right.
still.
have you fallen asleep?

1 comment:

MeLissa said...

Let me know if and when we need to go to Rosepeppers.